Ok I was doing so well with using distraction up till last night grrr Things went downhill and I cut for the first time in about 3/4 moths I was so annoyed with myself. I just dont want it to pull me back again.
Oh debs, naughty you have us why ever did you feel you needed to do that. if you do that again we will dis-own you. Now if you feel bad come and talk to us dont leave us in the dark. You have us all for support, but as they say we carnt help if we dont know what your up too TUT! TUT! rant over.....
I know I have you peeps here and Im glad I have, I think things just turned very quickly and yeah landman I will try and say something when the next time i feel like it, im quite fed up with myslef for doing it but I will get my feet back on track again Thank you
I understand how you feel, when you are in bed and its been a hard day and you can think of nothing more to pick up something and do halm to yourself. But i would much rarther you come down the stairs and logon to here and chat to us and we can talk to you. So you can talk it out
You must be going through such a difficult time and there must be loads running around in your head Debs. But honestly you don't need to hurt yourself I know it gets hard at times and our brains can be our own worst enemies. Remember though don't beat yourself up about it everyone slips up at times remain positive and start again. Here if u want someone to talk to.
I know what you're saying Rick Thanks. I know I am my worst enemy. I was trying to chat with someone very close through it all last night but I was pushing that person away as much as possible, the person was doing the best to help but thats what I do all the time when stresses hit and im just glad that person knew what I was doing I will try harder though to get on here and ask you all for a shoulder
I do that all the time Debs it saves us from getting hurt or even worse hurting them. They say we hurt the ones we love/care about most. Not good to do Debs but don't get yourself down and try open up and let this person in slowly see how things go.
ok, im stuck with this, it is like an addiction, I did it the once and done it again tonight. Now I know im wrong to do it but i am sure it is better than what went through my mind. I am a lot calmer again now. I know I have disappointed the person who I was talking with and Im sorry. I know I can get past this and I will.
Struggling....did well over that weekend but it is raising its ugly head again..i am fighting it but its very hard again to beat it off
If i find u have done it again debs i wont be impressed i need u to get outa bed and come and speak to us
Today bad bad day, went to work was verbally and racially abused, came home to find someone very close to me is pushing me away and I want to be there for that person. Why ...what is the point. Couldn't hold back not good
Hang in there Debs thing may be difficult but things can only get better. I'd report the verbal and racial abuse that's just ridiculous. As for the person pushing you away give them time sometimes when we are at our lowest that's what people do just give them time. Here if you need to chat.
I can't really report the abuse because I don't know the people that was hurling it at me and my work is out and about I was playing in the park at the time lol I hope time is what is needed I am rather scared that it isnt I think silly as it seems I have lost the harming battle...I can't seem to stop it I have tried the usual but it doesnt seem to work
when will it get easier? What can I do to get back on track? Life is hard at times, im not really sure why anymore, why about anything.
(HUGS) I know times are difficult Debs but u got to remember things do and will get better you just have to hold in there. What would you say is the key thing that you would want to change right now that would make things that little bit better for you?
There is way too much I 'want' to change. Things just don't seem to want to help me through this. I know things are brought on by my own actions and no matter what happened I miss what I shouldn't and it hurts. I am really trying but getting nowhere with it. I am trying to stop the hurting but I can't do it grrrr...all the disrations are just not helping at the moment
