Well where to start, I'm a Christian I suppose that's as good of a place as any. When I say I'm a Christian I say it in the sense of the literal definition. That's what Google defines a Christian as anyway. and I fit that description I believe in Jesus I believe he existed and that he was the son of God. My problem is I feel so unworthy of the title "Christian" even saying I was a Christian in this thread was difficult see I don't lead the Christian life style everything my religion says don't do I pretty much do. I've had sex outside of marriage and would do it again because I can't resist the temptation, I've lied and I know I will do it again at some point in my life, I drink alcohol and will do that again. It's like I can't resist temptation. I haven't been to church in awhile because I feel like such a hypocrite why should I go to church on a Sunday and act like the perfect little Christian when chances are the night before I was getting wasted on alcohol and having a good time. It's like I know what to do and I know the church leaders would say repent and ask for forgiveness and that's all good and well but both myself and God know I'll only do it again which leaves me with the question am I truly sorry? All I know is I feel awful I know I believe in my heart and I know I love my faith but at the same time I know if any one deserves to go to Hell it's me. I feel so screwed up when it comes to my faith and I just don't know what to do.
